Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Product Giveaway!

Not here...over on Monica's blog!

She is generously giving everyone a chance to win one of several energy bars - either a Prana, Boomi, or Supercharger bar. And there are a few different flavors to pick from, all of which look awesome!

Go forth and read her blog. It's a really fun place! And don't forget to enter her giveaway. :)

Monday, December 28, 2009

We Are Idiots

Hubs and I are stupid. We really are. We insist on eating until we're disgusted with ourselves.

This morning was good. I had an egg white omelette with veggies, some baked home fries, and an English muffin. Then Hubs and I burned over 1500 calories snow hiking. I'm not kidding! That's really how much we burned. We hiked for 2 hours. We worked up a bit of an appetite after that so we had lunch, and we did...okay. We both got soup (French onion for me, chili for him) and split an appetizer of which we brought back better than half. It's sitting in the refrigerator but I doubt it'll get touched. It's just too heavy - sliced potatoes with bacon and cheese, baked. Gross. Just thinking about it makes me want to puke.

We also ate too much dinner. It wasn't bad food...it was just entirely too much.

Hubs and I feel awful. I miss the feeling of having a small, light-feeling stomach. Instead I feel heavy, sluggish, tired, and nauseous. I haven't been really hungry for any of our meals here, and that's because I eat too much at one and it just doesn't digest before it's time for the next. Also, I'm not drinking enough water; my rings are tight again and I just feel toxic. I know that sounds dramatic and ridiculous, but I can't think of a better word for it.

I refuse to feel this way tomorrow. It's not going to happen.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

The North Face

I'll get to the title in a bit. ;)

Hubs and I are on vacation in the White Mountains at the moment - we got here on Saturday and will be staying until Friday (or Saturday if I get my way!). So far on the food front, things have been absolutely disastrous. LOL Honestly, I'm very disgusted with myself. Usually it's not too bad because we're always very active up here, but it was raining yesterday and today so we haven't been able to do much hiking. But oh...we have been eating. I estimate that I've eaten over 3000 calories yesterday and today - each day, I mean. I decided to tally my breakfast this morning and realized I'd had 940 calories...before 8:30 AM. Chalk that up to two extra large breakfast sausages (475 calories) that I didn't initially order, but when the waitress said, "Would you like any bacon, ham, or sausage with that?" I caved. It's a throw back to the BK Lounge drive-through breakfast behavior, and I realize that now. That behavior is NOT acceptable, and it will NOT happen tomorrow. I will be making better choices, and the fact that the weather is going to be beautiful for the rest of our vacation will REALLY help with our activity level. I'm definitely looking forward to that!

So, about the title...

Hubs and I are pretty big outdoors-y types. We love hiking and kayaking; our favorite activity is hiking though, and I think we're pretty hardcore. We recently became members of the Appalachian Mountain Club, which was really cool for us. And we hike pretty much every season of the year, rain or shine. We came up here for my birthday week in October and hiked in freezing cold rain and fog, we've hiked in snow...we just love to HIKE. And even before I lost weight I enjoyed hiking, though it's much easier for me now. ;)

So anyway, over the past year or two Hubs and I have accumulated some really nice hiking gear. We have several pairs of Merrells, great North Face hiking packs, and for Christmas Hubs bought me a North Face shell to go over my North Face Denali fleece. Hubs already had a North Face Denali fleece and shell; I had the fleece but really needed a waterproof shell. Hubs got a bad ass winter coat for Christmas, which he can't wear in weather over 30 degrees because he'll sweat. LOL

Now...if you click on the link to my shell and my fleece, you'll notice that they're men's. That's because I have NEVER been able to fit into any women's clothing from The North Face. I always used to blame the size of my boobs (which are big), but that was just another excuse I made for being too fat. (Note: I do buy North Face pants in men's sizes, but that really is because the women's aren't long enough unless I can find talls, which I swear don't exist. I've got an almost 34-inch inseam - it's a blessing and a curse.) The problem with men's styles of North Face tops and coats is that, well...they're masculine. So it kind of sucks.


Since it was raining here today, Hubs and I made it our shopping day. We bought some great North Face Gore-Tex pants for snow hiking, but it took Hubs a considerably longer amount of time to find his because he's worse than a woman when he shops. In the meantime, I wandered over to the women's section just for shits and giggles. I caught a glance of a gorgeous jacket...extra large. It looked awfully big, and I thought to myself, That looks like it would fit. However, I've had that thought before and it's betrayed me, so I can't say I was feeling too confident.

I looked around for Hubs but he was nowhere to be found. He obviously was trying on his eighth pair of pants. ;) I felt like I had a little time, so I set down my purse and took off my men's North Face jacket. I made sure no one was looking - I certainly didn't want anyone to witness me trying to squeeze my arm into a tight little armhole, or battling with a zipper that just wasn't going to go up past my boob line (not thanks to my boob size...more like thanks to my back fat). When I was satisfied that there were no recon missions underway, I quietly slipped on the jacket...

...and zipped it right up to my neck.

Let me tell you something...I REJOICED. Inside I did a happy dance that I hadn't done in a long time. When Hubs got out of the dressing room I told him what happened. Ladies, if I ever die in a fiery car crash, track down my husband, because he is a GOOD man. He is the most supportive, most beautiful human being this world has ever seen. He asked if I wanted to get one next month, and I said no, that I still wanted to lose about 35 pounds (probably 45 after this trip). So he said that when I hit my goal, or whatever weight I'm comfortable with, that he will take my North Face fleece and shell for himself (he wanted a new one of both anyway), and I can get a new one of both. Never mind that it's a $700 combination. Hubs will let me get one anyway, because he is amazing.

I could fit into a women's North Face Jacket. THAT is victory.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Shout-Out! (Pay Attention, Guys!)

You all need to head on over to Monica's blog and check it out! She's got a really fun place over there with lots of food ideas, product reviews, and giveaways. Please visit her today! She was kind enough to check me out over here in my lonely glory... ;) So return the favor!

Damn You, Universe!

I still haven't used our shiny new treadmill. :( And I'm really not making excuses. I had an appointment with my allergist yesterday and realized that my asthma is making me crazy because I have a raging sinus infection. Good times, no? I'm definitely feeling better thanks to some antibiotics, but my lungs are still a bit angry with me. (Post-nasal drip. YUM.) I'd rather keep them calm and quiet, and exercise would throw that right out the window. It just means that I have to watch my calories extra-closely.

I was super proud of myself today because I had lunch with some of my colleagues at an Asian restuarant. Now...I LOVE Asian food - the crispier and oilier the better. But today I opted for steamed brown rice (ate 2/3 of a cup), steamed broccoli and snap peas, and about 3 oz of steamed tofu. I drizzled on some soy sauce and went right into Chinese heaven. :) It was delicious! Can't say it was completely satisfying though, and I kind of wished I'd had a bit more rice. But I ended up having a banana on my commute home which filled me nicely.

Breakfast was my "regular"; lately I've been doing coffee with Splenda and 2/3 Tbsp. organic half and half, Ezekiel toast with almond butter (and 1 Tbsp. of honey today for fun!), a container of non-fat Fage, and 1/4 cup of blueberries. Scrummy. :)

Dinner was 1/4 cup steel-cut oats with the following mix-ins: 1/2 medium banana, 1 Tbsp. organic almond butter, and 1 Tbsp. milk chocolate chips (for fun again!). I also had a handful of Doritos while the oatmeal was cooking. Bad girl!

Total calories today were 1374. About 100 higher than I'd like, but life goes on. Next time maybe I'll skip the Doritos and the honey...but not the chocolate chips. ;)

Weigh-in is coming up on Thursday. My fingers are crossed!

Saturday, December 19, 2009


Why am I posting like a lunatic today? Because it's a Saturday, and Hubs and I are snowed in. Hooray for blizzard-like conditions!

I did indeed have my delicious sandwich for lunch. Holy wow, why didn't I think of that sooner? I can thank Kath for that idea. I can also thank her for the idea to roast a butternut squash! (No, I didn't think of it sooner myself. I don't know why...don't ask.)

Here's the thing. Hubs is generally kind of hateful about vegetables. I was never a big fan of them either, but I'm learning to like them more and to fit them in my diet whether I want them or not. I've been working my way through Kath's blog from her first post ever and kept reading all this stuff about butternut squash being so good. I vaguely remembered Hubs and I having it as a side at a restaurant once, and I thought I remembered it being sweet. So it seemed to me that Hubs would at least give it a go if I roasted one with a little whipped butter and brown sugar.

I had no idea what I was doing, of course. The squash, after I halved it, was very unstable. That's because I cut it all crooked. But I tried to kind of shave it down so that it would set nicely face-down on the baking sheet. LOL I put about a half inch of water in the baking sheet and just stuck it in the oven for 45 minutes at 400*. Then I stuck some butter and brown sugar in the little butternut cave and roasted face-up (obviously) for 5 more minutes.

Can I just tell you something?

It was WICKED good. Hubs scraped that little squash down to its nothings trying to get every little bit out of there. For 200 calories I can't think of a better snack! Loved it.

Dinner was steel cut oats with 1/2 banana, 1 Tbsp. chocolate chips, and 1 Tbsp. almond butter for me. Hubs had his with some brown sugar. He never had steel cut oats before...he gets funny about so-called "weird" foods. But when I explained to him that his instant oatmeal was just processed-numerous-times oats, he was willing to try the steel cut. The first thing he said was, "Did you put butter in here? It's really good."

Exactly, Hubs. Exactly. And there was no butter, dear.

See you tomorrow!

You should...

...go over to Kath Eats Real Food right this minute for amazing recipes, inspiration, and how to make good, nutritious food choices every day...including those days when life hands us special occasions and tricky situations. Wonderful!!! :D

Last Night

Okay...last night wasn't awful, but it wasn't wonderful.

First, I had about 600 calories left over when we got to our friends' house. The wife asked what we wanted for dinner, and I just requested something healthy. Well, I'll tell you...it was healthy, and it was amazing!

First, we had a salad with mixed greens, zucchini, grape tomatoes, and little mini fresh mozzarella balls. There was a choice of Caesar dressing or balsamic vinegar and olive oil, so I chose the latter and was heavier on the vinegar. Then we had butternut squash soup...holy YUM! She said it was just squash, carrots, chicken stock, and 1 tbsp of butter for 9 cups of soup. I estimate that I had about a cup and a half, so not bad. It was amazing!

The main course was ridiculously good. Whole wheat rotini pasta, with roasted grape tomatoes, zucchini, and green beans. She tossed it all in only a little bit of olive oil and then added some fresh parmigiano-reggiano cheese before throwing it in the oven for 5 more minutes. It was SO YUMMY. The problem was that I had about a cup and a half of this...the bigger problem is that I was full after about a cup, but I didn't stop eating because I didn't want to be rude. That's terrible...I should've just put my fork down. By the time I finished I was uncomfortably full.

I also had a very small piece of rosemary sourdough bread and about 6 oz. of homemade sangria. The sangria was like heaven... Our friend kept saying, "Really, this should be considered a health drink!" The whole mixture had a bottle of red wine, 1/2 cup triple sec, 1/2 cup brandy, 2 cups of pomegranate juice, plus some apples, grapes, oranges, and pomegranate seeds floating around. I could see her point of the health drink thing - antioxidants, the health benefits of red wine, all of that fruit...I'm on board with that! ;)

Dessert was a holy disaster. This was our task for the night, and totally ignoring the promise I made to myself of getting things I didn't care for, I bought 4 cannolis and a chocolate truffle cake! Oh, for the love of GOD. I had half a cannoli, a piece of cake (decent sized, but not enormous), and the cake icing that Hubs' left behind. I felt extremely gross after all of that and was kind of disappointed that I'd eaten so much.

Today is a new day though, and all is well. :) I had about 10 ounces of coffee early this morning and just finished a container of nonfat Fage yogurt with 1/4 cup of blueberries for a grand total of 130 calories this morning. Lunch is a salmon, avocado, and spinach sandwich on Ezekiel bread. Maybe oatmeal for dinner.

And on the exercise front, Hubs is putting the treadmill together as I type! The only problem with starting my exercise today is that my asthma has been giving me a LOT of trouble since yesterday, so I may have to push the start of my C25K to tomorrow. But it's not because I don't want to do it...it's because I don't want to die.

Happy Saturday!!!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Official Friday Weigh-In

I'm sitting here breathing a sigh of relief!

I didn't have to go out for dinner last night, which was really fortunate. Because while I could have easily stuck with fish and vegetables, I would have had a hard time resisting a shared dessert or a second glass of wine. I know myself, and I know not to lie to myself, and I know those things would have been difficult for me. But I got out of it, so it doesn't matter! Dinner last night was Muir Glen Chicken Tortilla soup - 260 calories for the entire can!

We're going to our friends' house for dinner tonight, and that might prove to be a challenge. I've decided that I'm not going to get there starving...though with a dinner time of around 8 PM, I don't know how I'll manage that. I ate a late breakfast today (steel cut oats, 1 tbsp. almond butter, 1/2 banana, and a tbsp of chocolate chips for 363 calories) so hopefully that means my lunch will be much later too. Then I can have a yogurt or something before we go. Hubs and I have been tasked with bringing dessert, so I'm going to pick two things - one that I don't care for at all, and one that I could do with or without. That means I'll only have a few bites of Hubs' and I won't feel compelled to take my own. It's a good strategy, or at least as good as it's going to get.

I told Hubs there will be no cheat meal this weekend. If we go out, I'm going to have to suck it up and get something healthy. I had my cheat meal already on Wednesday, and it was QUITE a cheat. So...I'm done with that until Christmas Eve.

Can I still meet my mini-goal by Christmas Eve? Not sure, but I'm going to damn well try.

Oh! The numbers for today...


Current weight: 229.6 (A loss since last Friday. Sweet!)

High Weight: 298.2

Goal Weight: 190

Mini-Goal Weight: 224 lbs (by Christmas Eve)

Total Lost: 68.6


I won't complain. Now I have to work hard until Christmas Eve.


(Oh...Hubs and I got our treadmill yesterday! I'll be starting the Couch to 5K program tomorrow morning. Exciting!)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

God Help Me...

Dear Lord...I have to hydrate and restrict tomorrow in a big way.

Today was a special day for me. My dad, who was technically my stepdad, officially adopted me today! Why did it take so long? Well, Bio-Dad wouldn't relinquish his parental rights many years ago when we asked the first time, and then as the years went by my dad and I forgot about it. I guess because he was always Dad, so a piece of paper didn't make a difference. But a few months ago, it occured to me that I didn't need Bio-Dad to give his blessing; as an adult, I was able to make the decision on my own. And so it goes that my dad adopted me today, and I'm thrilled. And so is he. :D

After the adoption, he took us all out for dinner. I decided to make tonight my cheat meal because I knew we were going to a place that has the best burgers ever, and I wanted one! I had an awesome burger with guacamole, onions, lettuce, and tomato; I asked them to hold the cheese, mayo, and bacon. I also had a few French fries and shared a brownie sundae with my sister. Earlier in the day I had two pieces of Ezekiel bread with 1 Tbsp. almond butter (250 cals), coffee (50 cals), half of a Kashi cereal bar for a snack (55 cals), and Amy's No Chicken Noodle soup for lunch (180 cals). So I had quite a few calories left over for dinner. Not enough to keep me on track for the day, but still not bad.

If I just left it there, I would have been fine.

Instead, I came home and had 3 homemade chocolate chip cookies (200 cals), a brownie from Starbucks (probably 400 cals), and like 3 f*cking servings of Doritos (450 cals). Let's not talk about how badly I messed up today, but let's not forget this when I don't hit my mini-goal by Christmas Eve. All my fault.

Tomorrow is dinner and drinks with my girlfriend, but the fact that I'm on call saves me. I can only have one glass of wine then, and I fully intend on ordering steamed fish and steamed veggies for dinner, period. Friday night is dinner with Hubs and our friend and his wife. Our friend's wife is cooking - so far I know there will be butternut squash soup. She asked what we wanted and I requested something healthy. I know I'll have a few drinks that night, but I'm skipping dessert except for maybe two or three bites of Hubs'.

I won't be able to weigh myself Friday morning because I'll be staying at my girlfriend's house Thursday night to be close to the hospital for call (our house is 90 miles north of the hospital!). I won't weigh myself Saturday after the night out with our friends... Perhaps I'll just weigh in on Christmas Eve day. We shall see.


Friday, December 11, 2009

Just a Quick Thought...

...I DO love the Hungry Girl cookbook. But man...those recipes sure do call for a lot of processed, unnatural foods.

I find myself replacing some of the nastier ingredients with regular, more natural versions. For example, a few of her recipes call for sugar-free syrup. Do yourself a favor and NEVER eat that. Or at least look at the ingredient list if you're thinking of it. Maple syrup should have maple syrup in it...period. Sugar-free syrup has like 10 ingredients, and not one of them is syrup.

The things I make from that book I've been trying to make as naturally/organically as possible, even if it does raise the calories a bit. Fat-free cheese = CHEMICALS. Go for full-fat and use less.

It was all really exciting in the beginning, and I'm still really glad we got the book, but there are some things I'll NEVER be making.

That's all. Just a quick thought!

Tricky Official Weigh-In!

All right, so I figured out why the scale wouldn't budge this week. I got my period this morning. Hallelujah! That explains a lot. Oh, and if it seems like I just had my period? That's because I did. LOL I got the Mirena IUD last month and apparently I'm a bit irregular, but not too bad. Let me just sing Mirena's praises for a moment: My period is lighter already, and I barely have any cramps. I know I've only had it in for a month, but it's not in my head. When I have cramps, I HURT. Today I'm doing well! Anyway, my period also explains why I've been so emotionally sensitive the past few days, but we won't get into that here. LOL

Okay, so why was my weigh-in tricky? Well, I always get on the scale 3 times for accuracy. This morning my weights were: 232.2, 230, 227.6. After 3 completely different weights, I got on again - 228. So it's possible that I'm in the 220s, but I'm making 232.2 my official weight today. And that's okay, because it's down 1.4 from last week! With my period. Not bad.

I made Hubs chocolate chip cookies this morning. Allow me to gloat - my chocolate chip cookies are amazing. They really are. I had 3 small ones. :P But I put them in for my calories today, counted them as my breakfast, and eventually when I get hungry for something (12:34 PM and the cookies are still holding me!) I'll have some non-fat greek yogurt with 1/3 cup of blueberries and 1/2 Tbsp. of Nature's Promise strawberry jam. Nature's Promise is the organic/all-natural store brand at one of the grocery stores here. I know it's only the store brand, but they're all really great products! The jam is USDA organic and 45 calories per tablespoon. I had this yesterday in my yogurt because we ran out of blueberries. I had a whole tablespoon yesterday since I had no other fruit, and it was really delicious! I stopped and got more berries after work yesterday, so today I cut it town to 1/2 Tbsp. of jam and kept the 1/3 cup of blueberries. (Yay for superfoods!) I'm excited to taste it later!

So anyway...that's all for today, folks. Number time!


Current Weight: 232.2

High Weight: 298.2

Mini-Goal Weight (by 12/24): 224

Goal Weight: 190

Total Lost: 66 lbs.

I'll take it. ;) Have a great weekend!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Honestly? REALLY?

Okay...seriously? WTF.

Hubs and I decided to have dinner together at the diner tonight. That may sound Whiskey Tango and wrong, but it's really not. Diners are great places to eat when you're watching your calories. Egg white omelettes with tons of veggies? Count me in. So I was excited when I asked the waiter what came in their Spanish omelette and he answered, "Peppers, onions, salsa, and cheese."

I told him that sounded great, just hold the cheese, and please make it with egg whites. I also ordered a side of whole wheat toast and planned on eating the home fries that came with the eggs. (They're baked, not fried.)

Imagine my surprise when my plate came out looking like a goddamned murder scene. The egg whites were beautiful and fluffy, the home fries were nice and crispy...

...and there was vegetable soup poured all over my egg whites.

Waiter? Hi. That's not peppers, onions, and salsa. That, my Spanish friend, is vegetable soup. And that is f*cking disgusting.

But I was nice. I called him over.

"Listen...this isn't your fault. I thought the vegetables were going to be fresh and in the omelette. This? This is the most unappetizing thing I've ever seen in my life. Let's try again and just do an egg white omelette with peppers, onions, and mushrooms. Please."

So Dinner 2.0 was lovely. But Hubs has already made the decision that we'll never return to the Soupy Egg Diner.

Weigh-in tomorrow! Stay tuned...I'm not feeling hopeful. Despite staying at my calorie limit every day this week, the scale is not budging. Ugh.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Why, Satan? WHY?!

I enjoyed the presence of potato chips in this world a LOT more when I wasn't counting calories.

Not even just potato chips - ANY kind of chips. Tonight, to be specific, it's riceworks Sweet Chili brown rice chips. Oh my God, please...these are so delicious and so wrong. They are so strongly seasoned and just make my mouth all tight and burn-y (salt and spices, respectively). They are hideously addictive, and though there is no MSG listed in the ingredients, they do contained hydrolyzed soy and/or corn protein which has free glutamate - may as well just be MSG. Perhaps this is why I am like a starving bear at a campsite when I open the bag. And why do I even open the bag to begin with? Goooood question. I scarfed down 2 servings today - only 20 chips for a crazy 280 calories. I could have had 4+ bowls of pumpkin for that.

I did add them into my calorie limit for the day, which sucks even though I know I have to do it. I could have had much better food for all of those calories. I'm still only at a total of 1335 for the day, but that's not the point. The point is that, for some reason, I'm having trouble controlling myself lately. If I want to hit my mini-goal by Christmas I'm going to have to start working a lot harder.


Sunday, December 6, 2009

Polish Love

Sooo...here was today's problem (she says, making an excuse for her behavior).

Hubs and I had a BIG shopping day today. We went to Cabela's in Hamburg, PA, and did a ton of purchasing - some for ourselves, some for others. Prior to this we had breakfast, which was a whopping 676 calories for me. I had a coffee, one piece of bacon, 1 oz. of ham, one mini turkey sausage patty, one biscuit with cinnamon and sugar, some homefries, and 3/4 cup of Egg Beaters. Now...I knew this was going to be a lot, but I was okay with that. I knew we were going to be really busy this morning. I also knew that this breakfast would hold me past lunch, and that I could get away with a small snack and dinner this evening. The problem? The problem was when Hubs reminded me that there was an authentic Polish deli we've been wanting to try. Authentic pierogies? See...you gotta count me in for that. I don't know how to say no to little pouches of potato lovingly formed by the hands of an old Polish woman. (Seriously, they were.) Oh, and they also had ridiculously good-looking stuffed cabbage. So lunch was 6 pierogies and a 5-oz. piece of stuffed cabbage. That was a total of 650, which took me to a grand total of 1326 calories. By 1:30 PM. I told Hubs I was done for the day, it didn't matter if I was hungry later or not.

Well, it did matter, and I ate about 2 servings of Sweet Chili Brown Rice chips for 280 calories. Grand total of 1600, which is hideous.

It is now 5:20 PM, and I will be hungry again tonight. It's when I have a night like this that I want to say, "Meh, screw it. We'll start over tomorrow."

Unhealthy behavior, for sure.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Stick a Fork in Me...I'm Done

Oh, I SO am.

I had my cheat meal today, and I feel absolutely grotesque. Like seriously, I feel like there's a brick in my stomach. But let's start off with the good.

Because I knew I was going to be having a big dinner tonight, I tried to keep it down during the day. For breakfast I scrambled up 1/2 cup of Egg Beaters, 1/4 cup of sausage-style soy crumbles, and 1/8 cup of fat-free cheese. Then I stuffed it into an olive oil tortilla (90 calories) with about a tablespoon of salsa. It was so good and filling, and only 200 calories! Still more than my typical yogurt and fruit breakfast, but it was nice to have something different.

Lunch was Bumble Bee seafood salad and crackers for 150 calories. Totally processed and gross, I know. Please don't judge me. I also had a package of chocolate peanut butter cupcakes for an extra 180.

Later for a snack I had 3 squares of Green & Black's 85% dark chocolate for 70 calories.

Not terrible, right?

Well, dinner was just disgusting. Hubs and I shared a mini onion blossom, which is about as nasty as you can get. We didn't eat the whole thing - go us. I also had a dinner roll with butter before our meals came out. My dinner was pork loin, a side of steamed broccoli, and a very small serving of french fries, of which I only ate half. That concluded dinner, and I could've lived with that.

After dinner we went to Barnes and Noble. From the Starbucks in there I ordered a light Caramel Frappuccino (130 calories) and was debating on what snack I was going to get (as if I needed it). My eyes kept going to the Godiva Double Chocolate cheesecake, but I kept talking myself out of it. That is just WAY too many calories and a heinous amount of fat. I had instead mentally chosen an oatmeal raisin cookie, which I would have left half of for Hubs. But leave it to me to be an idiot...as soon as it was my turn to order, I blurted out, "Godiva cheesecake, please."

It was heavenly. No...it really was. Delicious. But I try to be honest with myself most of the time, and honestly I don't know that it was worth my calories. I mean, it was great...but I bet I could've gotten satisfied by something else. Ah well. Lesson learned.

About 2 hours after Hubs and I got home, I ate some Sweet Chili Brown Rice Chips. They were Le Yum, but now I hate myself. Getting back on the wagon will feel good tomorrow.

Yuck. Goodnight.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Whew!!! (Official Friday Weigh-In)

Gosh...that was a close one. Allow me to tell you the story.

After NYC last weekend, I weighed 244 pounds. Oh yes...you read that right. And that's why I wouldn't dare give you my number last time I wrote. Have no fear, folks, for today I am back down to 233.6!!! So, okay...no real loss since Thanksgiving. But Christ on a bike, at least I'm not in the 240s again. Obviously there was a lot of water retention, so I've been staying away from salty foods all week and drinking a LOT of water. Plus I don't think I went over 1300 calories any day this week. Let me thank God for small miracles and a bit of willpower when I needed it.

So, let's talk about today.

Breakfast: Container of plain, non-fat Fage yogurt, 1/3 cup blueberries, coffee with 2 tbsp. organic half and half

Lunch: Clif Builder's bar in peanut butter - I had to eat in my car, and this was DELICIOUS!!!

Dinner: Hungry Girl Mexi-Tato

Snacks: apple, Light Babybel cheese, Hungry Girl brownie muffin, organic tortilla chips, one slice of near-cheeseless, thin crust veggie pizza

That's a total of 1315 calories today. Great! :D But lest it sound like I did a great job, I will admit that the entire serving of organic tortilla chips was eaten while I was standing up, with the pantry door still open. Some things never change, but I'm trying. Hey, at least I limited it to one serving.

And now for today's numbers...


Current Weight: 233.6

High Weight: 298.2

Mini-Goal Weight (NEW FEATURE! ;) ): 224 by December 24th

Goal Weight: 190

Total Lost: 64.6


Current BMI: 34.5

High BMI: 42.5

Happy weekend, all!!! :D